Well, we have reached the end of 2009. There is much to be thankful for this year. I can say that since about 6 weeks ago, I have not had much trouble sleeping at night....wheew....I am happy about that.
There has been so much going on. Chris did manage to get healed after his surgery on his knee is Sept. That was a long, and long awaited, process. He is back to work (overnights) and seems to be doing well. This is temporary and he will come off sometime this next year.
Katharine has enjoyed her season of Volleyball as a Varsity player. That is what she has been striving for all along. She really enjoys her volleyball. Both sets of Grandparents were able to see her play here at different games each end of the season. I think that they enjoyed it.
OH! How dare I forget the fact that we are now facing the challenges of driving w/a new teen driver. She is improving and gets a little nervous and confused about directions from mom....LOL Oh well, she will make it past all of this and find herself in the real world of college and jobs in a few short months. She is still looking for that 'perfect' job to pay her portion of the insurance.
The house certainly has been taking better shape since early last year. There still is much to do; like the bathrooms. Both of them! Not sure where to even get started on that one. First, I think we need an exterminator before the spring comes so we can get rid of our nest of wasps that have invaded the small space in the roof between the actual ceiling and the roof tiles. Oh joy!
Now, convince the dad that he must come and visit again sometime next year to get at least one of the bathrooms done. This time, he shouldn't need to tow a U-Haul and bring all of my old stuff back to me from 12 years ago in NY.
Jessica has just gotten her ears pierced. (I didn't even think she would attempt anything remotely related to any pain)....to our surprise, she didn't flinch - much! She is really enjoying playing the Wii and trying to figure out how to get in touch w/her cousins in CA on the Wii.....I think we can figure it out; sometime.
Oh yes, we musn't forget the fact that we now have not one, but two, teenage girls in High School this year! And the load of homework just somehow got easier for the younger one! Surprise, she still is getting all A's, even with two math classes; 10th grade Geometry and Algebra II as well.
Joshua has been busy just growing and growing, and growing...he is getting really tall....He also really likes his basket ball practice. I think he is learning something. He sure does get pretty tired from it. He's also worried about his weight and I keep telling him not to worry about it right now, he's growing and will soon be OK.
Dare we forget the fact that school called us one lonely afternoon and said, "Joshua had his eyes tested, and we think you need to take him to get checked". Well, not liking what I heard and, of course, knowing that it was coming due to family genetics; he does now have glasses.....and he looks pretty smart too!
I have started working kitty-corner to our house at one of the local churches, along with doing work for our home church and prayer meetings still. Busy, busy, busy! I do enjoy being busy a little bit and contributing to the economics of our family.
Time has been short this year. I think about all the things that have passed and will come, but all that really matters is what I will actually do with my time and how I will use it to the best of the ability that God gave me. I love that He is so faithful that He sees every time we have a need and that we can ask for forgiveness and we can start over again with a clean slate; even those times when things are so far past us that no one will ever remember what we are asking forgiveness for.
Love and Peace to All in the New and Coming Year!
May you all be Blessed in Jesus' Name......
Shirley
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Sleepless Nights
Yes, for some time now I have had sleeplessness......this doesn't seem to be just a once in a while kind of thing. It seems to be every single cotten pickin' night lately. I have had many nights of not being able to sleep over the course of my life but, lately it just seems to be never ending. I am getting so afraid that when I actually feel tired, I don't really want to go to bed because I am afraid that I will wake up.
I seem to be able to fall asleep most nights no problem. But, over the last week or two I have been waking at about the same time each night and then start tossing and turning and going over all kinds of things in my head and, of course, this makes things that much worse. My mind is telling me that I really want to sleep but at the same time it tells me that I need to get up and do things.
I say that all this waking up and thinking, tossing and just plain being awake in the middle of the nhight has caused most of my weight gain and failed attempts at losing it at all. I am extremly frustrated. I have tried exercise before sleeping. I have tried warm milk. I have tried just going to bed when I am tired. I have tried nice relaxing showers. I have tried a massage (of sorts). I have even tried some pills to get myself to sleep. All this to no avail.
I have yet to figure out exactly why this is happening to me. I feel like the incredible non-sleeping person. I can honestly say that I don't like noise of any sort while I sleep and if I happen to hear noise when trying to get back to sleep or can't just seem to get comfortable, it only makes the situation worse. I really can't tolerate it when I wake up and my husband is in bed and is snoring. That makes my heart race and makes it worse. But, if he doesn't come to bed by a certain time, then I wake up. I feel as though I am not able to win this battle.
Here it is now at 3:30 in the morning and I have probably been awake for more than 2 hours already. Went to bed at around 10:30 and went to sleep around 11 after reading. Woke at around 12:15 because the husband hadn't come to bed yet. Fell asleep and didn't hear him come in tonight, but at 1:30 woke up. Have been tossing and turning since then and finally got myself up out of bed and started crying and pacing and here it is at this hour in the night when all others have had at least 3 hours of sleep by now. I don't know what I am to do.....If I go to bed when I am tired, I can't sleep, if it exercise or whatever, I don't get enough sleep......guess the question is, 'what is the right amount of sleep for me?'
I am still waiting for that answer......and then, will I actually start losing weight if I can sleep through the night? I do notice that on most nights when this happens, I can actually not eat before bed, but will gain anywhere from 3-5 lbs!!!! How ridiculous!!!
well, guess I will ready/study for a while now before everyone gets up! See ya later!
I seem to be able to fall asleep most nights no problem. But, over the last week or two I have been waking at about the same time each night and then start tossing and turning and going over all kinds of things in my head and, of course, this makes things that much worse. My mind is telling me that I really want to sleep but at the same time it tells me that I need to get up and do things.
I say that all this waking up and thinking, tossing and just plain being awake in the middle of the nhight has caused most of my weight gain and failed attempts at losing it at all. I am extremly frustrated. I have tried exercise before sleeping. I have tried warm milk. I have tried just going to bed when I am tired. I have tried nice relaxing showers. I have tried a massage (of sorts). I have even tried some pills to get myself to sleep. All this to no avail.
I have yet to figure out exactly why this is happening to me. I feel like the incredible non-sleeping person. I can honestly say that I don't like noise of any sort while I sleep and if I happen to hear noise when trying to get back to sleep or can't just seem to get comfortable, it only makes the situation worse. I really can't tolerate it when I wake up and my husband is in bed and is snoring. That makes my heart race and makes it worse. But, if he doesn't come to bed by a certain time, then I wake up. I feel as though I am not able to win this battle.
Here it is now at 3:30 in the morning and I have probably been awake for more than 2 hours already. Went to bed at around 10:30 and went to sleep around 11 after reading. Woke at around 12:15 because the husband hadn't come to bed yet. Fell asleep and didn't hear him come in tonight, but at 1:30 woke up. Have been tossing and turning since then and finally got myself up out of bed and started crying and pacing and here it is at this hour in the night when all others have had at least 3 hours of sleep by now. I don't know what I am to do.....If I go to bed when I am tired, I can't sleep, if it exercise or whatever, I don't get enough sleep......guess the question is, 'what is the right amount of sleep for me?'
I am still waiting for that answer......and then, will I actually start losing weight if I can sleep through the night? I do notice that on most nights when this happens, I can actually not eat before bed, but will gain anywhere from 3-5 lbs!!!! How ridiculous!!!
well, guess I will ready/study for a while now before everyone gets up! See ya later!
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Change
My how we all change over time. I sat last week and had some very challenging things to grow into. There was a ton of activity at home and then there was a teaching that I was asked to prepare for on Friday night. Our prayer team at church is called P.U.S.H. ; which means Pray Until Something Happens. Well, we had planned to do an all night prayer time of learning and teaching. At about the minute I was asked to prepare something to teach, I think I panicked and went numb.
What was I to teach, how was I to write something I didn't feel qualified to tell everyone else and how well would it be received. Then, I came to realization that no matter what I said, unless it was ordained by God that I do it, then I was never going to be good enough. I think I learned more from just putting all the teaching together than from actually being prepared for the time.
At the event, there was 4 teachers who were involved. It was a nice time. It was an easy time to be awake for all who came. We had a really good turnout. And we thank God that so many were able and willing to come. Then, there was the song preparation for Sunday morning. That was a whole nother idea in itself. I was petrified and didn't want to ruin it and didn't feel prepared. Well, there I was up on the stage prepared to sing and then the music began. I was lost and the music didn't want to cooperate. I had a lot of comments because I didn't sing. I think people were more impressed that I didn't sing than that I did. Oh well, not to be disappointed.
So, I was asked to prepare for the possibility of doing something that night at the evening service, well we had a wonderful spirit-filled service and I felt ok that it was almost over. Then, the pastor startled me and asked me to sing anyway, so I gave it a shot. I think it was ok.
Oh yes, change has come and gone over time. The oldest comes and asks me questions and I can't believe that time has brought me closer to the point where she will be able to make her own decisions for her life and base her own future on her own choices. I hope that I have done everything right by her and not done damage. I am so thankful that she is a beautiful young woman who is being formed by God to His will. I pray every day that she is strong enough to stand by her own convictions and do what is right and make good choices, and that she will marry a man who has the same beliefs that she carries.
It makes me cry to think that, now that all the changes I think I have been ready the handle are here, how much I am going to miss having the little girl around who just needed to be tickled to be calmed as a baby. And told that she is good person who I love and is loved by all around her.
What was I to teach, how was I to write something I didn't feel qualified to tell everyone else and how well would it be received. Then, I came to realization that no matter what I said, unless it was ordained by God that I do it, then I was never going to be good enough. I think I learned more from just putting all the teaching together than from actually being prepared for the time.
At the event, there was 4 teachers who were involved. It was a nice time. It was an easy time to be awake for all who came. We had a really good turnout. And we thank God that so many were able and willing to come. Then, there was the song preparation for Sunday morning. That was a whole nother idea in itself. I was petrified and didn't want to ruin it and didn't feel prepared. Well, there I was up on the stage prepared to sing and then the music began. I was lost and the music didn't want to cooperate. I had a lot of comments because I didn't sing. I think people were more impressed that I didn't sing than that I did. Oh well, not to be disappointed.
So, I was asked to prepare for the possibility of doing something that night at the evening service, well we had a wonderful spirit-filled service and I felt ok that it was almost over. Then, the pastor startled me and asked me to sing anyway, so I gave it a shot. I think it was ok.
Oh yes, change has come and gone over time. The oldest comes and asks me questions and I can't believe that time has brought me closer to the point where she will be able to make her own decisions for her life and base her own future on her own choices. I hope that I have done everything right by her and not done damage. I am so thankful that she is a beautiful young woman who is being formed by God to His will. I pray every day that she is strong enough to stand by her own convictions and do what is right and make good choices, and that she will marry a man who has the same beliefs that she carries.
It makes me cry to think that, now that all the changes I think I have been ready the handle are here, how much I am going to miss having the little girl around who just needed to be tickled to be calmed as a baby. And told that she is good person who I love and is loved by all around her.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Awesome love!
After spending time away from the girls last week, it gave me an appreciation of how much I really love and care for them. I miss their stories and their action around the house. It fills my heart to know that others also enjoy their company as well. I love hearing how much other adults love my girls. They are such a blessing to others around them.
I am so thankful that they are lovers of God and that He is deep inside their hearts. I pray throughout time that they never lose that love.
There have always been challenges in my life and this week will certainly be no different for me. I have much to do and little time to get it all in. The bulletin must be done by Thursday, there is also the orthopedic surgeon to be seen about Chris' knee, there are normal household things to be done and by friday night I have to be ready to present instruction in prayer at the church. Doesn't seem like much but my mind is just in a fog at the moment.
Yesterday, I think I learned something from the Sunday School class. I walked away knowing that I am not up to standards when it comes to my time spent at prayer and study, but that God still loves me anyway, I just have to keep at things every day.
My brother did call me and he is doing well in the wilds and is still safe. Also my grandpa is doing much better. No more of the ICU experiences for now, just healing.
Love you all and have a great day!
I am so thankful that they are lovers of God and that He is deep inside their hearts. I pray throughout time that they never lose that love.
There have always been challenges in my life and this week will certainly be no different for me. I have much to do and little time to get it all in. The bulletin must be done by Thursday, there is also the orthopedic surgeon to be seen about Chris' knee, there are normal household things to be done and by friday night I have to be ready to present instruction in prayer at the church. Doesn't seem like much but my mind is just in a fog at the moment.
Yesterday, I think I learned something from the Sunday School class. I walked away knowing that I am not up to standards when it comes to my time spent at prayer and study, but that God still loves me anyway, I just have to keep at things every day.
My brother did call me and he is doing well in the wilds and is still safe. Also my grandpa is doing much better. No more of the ICU experiences for now, just healing.
Love you all and have a great day!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Happenings
Well, there has certainly been some big surprises in my life lately. My grandpa, who is near and dear to my heart, is back in ICU right now w/a small bowel obstruction and urinary tract infection after his fall. If that is the worst of things, then I'm happy for that. I know that after things have cleared up all will be ok no matter what happens. I am learning everyday how to deal with so many new things in life.
I can't say I am not concerned, because I am. I am also concerned about my girls who are away at camp. I'm sure they are having a blast! Then there is my husband who has to see the orthopedic surgeon next week because of his knee pain. I know that all things will be taken care of because God is faithful in all things just that we must believe it and confess exactly what we want from our mouths!
Anyway, a little bit more info from this side of things here today.
God Bless and love you all
I can't say I am not concerned, because I am. I am also concerned about my girls who are away at camp. I'm sure they are having a blast! Then there is my husband who has to see the orthopedic surgeon next week because of his knee pain. I know that all things will be taken care of because God is faithful in all things just that we must believe it and confess exactly what we want from our mouths!
Anyway, a little bit more info from this side of things here today.
God Bless and love you all
Monday, July 20, 2009
Love and Mercy
Through this weekend, I have discovered that God has so much love and mercy for me. Not just me alone, but everyone. I truly am blessed when I think that I am in the midst of all life's greatest trials. I have suffered nothing compared to most in other countries. I don't know or understand what it is like to have literally nothing to clothe yourself or to eat or have clean water to drink or bathe.
I am truly blessed to have a God who cares so much for me that he uses others to help me out of times of despair in life. There is so much running through my head right now, all having to do w/things that can go wrong. I am trying to remember that it all will not make a bit of difference if I have so much 'stuff'. My true love and life comes from the Heavenly Father who loves and cares so much for each and every one of us.
Managing to get the girls off to church camp was pretty fun. Both for them and me. I was anxiously watching them pack and prepare everything for departure realizing that they are growing up so fast and that there will be so many changes coming in life over the next few years. I don't know if I am looking forward to it or now but, it will happen ready, or not!
The remainder of this week will be spent at home with one child who has his nose buried in his GameBoy. What an invention that is! Anyway, much in life is filled w/anticipation and anxiety. I just can't let the worst of it get to me at all. So, it is w/great joy that I am alive today and have God's greatest gifts of love and mercy!
Bless you all
I am truly blessed to have a God who cares so much for me that he uses others to help me out of times of despair in life. There is so much running through my head right now, all having to do w/things that can go wrong. I am trying to remember that it all will not make a bit of difference if I have so much 'stuff'. My true love and life comes from the Heavenly Father who loves and cares so much for each and every one of us.
Managing to get the girls off to church camp was pretty fun. Both for them and me. I was anxiously watching them pack and prepare everything for departure realizing that they are growing up so fast and that there will be so many changes coming in life over the next few years. I don't know if I am looking forward to it or now but, it will happen ready, or not!
The remainder of this week will be spent at home with one child who has his nose buried in his GameBoy. What an invention that is! Anyway, much in life is filled w/anticipation and anxiety. I just can't let the worst of it get to me at all. So, it is w/great joy that I am alive today and have God's greatest gifts of love and mercy!
Bless you all
Friday, July 17, 2009
Oh my!
Wow, I know it has been a couple of days. To update on how things are going here. I have started going to the gym each morning at 6 am. Wow! I am surprised I can even function at that hour let alone exercise. I'm glad to have some friends who will be supporters for this new endeavor. I am sore but think I am making some progress. Weight loss will be one of the many goals for this time frame. I need to be in better shape and hopefully lose weight as a benefit.
Chris has had an MRI on his leg and we should get the results sometime next week. Hopefully it will be nothing big. Been praying hard for a big healing, who knows what it will be. It is all in the hands of God now.
Got a call the other day about my 94 yr old grandpa. Seems he was on a roof and managed to fall through it and broke 3 ribs. He will be in the hospital for a couple of days to monitor for pneumonia. Have been waiting to hear any more news about him. He needs to be moved out of ICU to be able to be released home. I have been expecting things for a while and it makes me sad but yet it gives me some way right now of knowing that he certainly is more alive than anything else...That's a good thing!
The girls will be gone to Church camp next week. They are looking forward to a good time away from their brother. I'm sure that they will have an absolute blast! Joshua is looking forward to some time by himself in the house. He will probably just be bored because there won't be another kid around here at night or during the day for him to talk to other than the adults in his life - his parents!
My brother will be out in the wilds of Alaska for 6 weeks doing some field work for his job. Have been praying that he be safe from all the animals out there. Black bear and moose especially. They will be around where he is going to - miles and miles from civilization. I think that he will have some others around for company, but the wilderness is nice.
Anyway, things this week have been crazy.
Love always and God's Blessings to you all.
Chris has had an MRI on his leg and we should get the results sometime next week. Hopefully it will be nothing big. Been praying hard for a big healing, who knows what it will be. It is all in the hands of God now.
Got a call the other day about my 94 yr old grandpa. Seems he was on a roof and managed to fall through it and broke 3 ribs. He will be in the hospital for a couple of days to monitor for pneumonia. Have been waiting to hear any more news about him. He needs to be moved out of ICU to be able to be released home. I have been expecting things for a while and it makes me sad but yet it gives me some way right now of knowing that he certainly is more alive than anything else...That's a good thing!
The girls will be gone to Church camp next week. They are looking forward to a good time away from their brother. I'm sure that they will have an absolute blast! Joshua is looking forward to some time by himself in the house. He will probably just be bored because there won't be another kid around here at night or during the day for him to talk to other than the adults in his life - his parents!
My brother will be out in the wilds of Alaska for 6 weeks doing some field work for his job. Have been praying that he be safe from all the animals out there. Black bear and moose especially. They will be around where he is going to - miles and miles from civilization. I think that he will have some others around for company, but the wilderness is nice.
Anyway, things this week have been crazy.
Love always and God's Blessings to you all.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Precious moments
There are so many times of life when we want things to go a certain way. Well, lately I have been doing a lot of talking about how things will change for me over the course of the next couple 3 or 4 years. I didn't think I would begin to realize just how much time has come and gone for me.
As we left our oldest at the volleyball seminar (her absolute passion in life right now), I was beginning to think of how things would really change for me. I didn't want to admit to myself how much I would really miss her around. The house seems a little more empty than normal w/out her hanging around reading, texting and just being a normal teenager. I love this girl w/all my heart from the day she was born until long into the future. I see that she will be always on the lookout for things to make her life more complete and fulfilling. She wants to be a grown up individual. Oh, how I wish that many days she were still just that small toddler who would climb into the full laundry basket of toys and throw each and every one of them out before making herself completely at home just sitting in the empty basket and we all had a really good laugh.
Then, I get the call from a friend about a little 2 year old. My heart sank as I waited in anticipation to only find out that someone had lost the most precious thing in their life - their own daughter. The memories that were made in that short time of life and the many things that will be missed because of something as painful as death! I wasn't asking to feel the way I do, but I realize now that only God has the most perfect timing in everything he does. I know we must all struggle w/loss on some level, but there can be nothing more permanently separating than that. How lucky I am to be able, at this moment of time, to share in joys and sorrows and adventures w/my own children. Because who knows what tomorrow holds. Only God has that future in store for each and every one of us.
Peace and blessings,
As we left our oldest at the volleyball seminar (her absolute passion in life right now), I was beginning to think of how things would really change for me. I didn't want to admit to myself how much I would really miss her around. The house seems a little more empty than normal w/out her hanging around reading, texting and just being a normal teenager. I love this girl w/all my heart from the day she was born until long into the future. I see that she will be always on the lookout for things to make her life more complete and fulfilling. She wants to be a grown up individual. Oh, how I wish that many days she were still just that small toddler who would climb into the full laundry basket of toys and throw each and every one of them out before making herself completely at home just sitting in the empty basket and we all had a really good laugh.
Then, I get the call from a friend about a little 2 year old. My heart sank as I waited in anticipation to only find out that someone had lost the most precious thing in their life - their own daughter. The memories that were made in that short time of life and the many things that will be missed because of something as painful as death! I wasn't asking to feel the way I do, but I realize now that only God has the most perfect timing in everything he does. I know we must all struggle w/loss on some level, but there can be nothing more permanently separating than that. How lucky I am to be able, at this moment of time, to share in joys and sorrows and adventures w/my own children. Because who knows what tomorrow holds. Only God has that future in store for each and every one of us.
Peace and blessings,
Monday, July 6, 2009
Many times
I have much to say at moments in my life. Sometimes I just don't know what to say or do about things going on every day. The girls are having a load of fun playing games w/their new friend upstairs and the dog wants to be in on their play time too. What a kid she can be.
Katharine, the oldest, is growing so fast that I can't possibly keep up w/her from day to day. Today she wants to play volleyball and impress the coach, tomorrow it is play time at the pool w/her friends and forgetting that she already had plans. Jessica is just a typical teen acting too much like myself and sometimes I really just want to pass out the information and hope that she is able to take it all in w/out an attitude.
Joshua is just a boy who doesn't 'think' that he has many other things to do in the day other than watch TV and play his gameboy-pokemon. I guess they all have their things. Then we are off the Evansville on Wednesday to take the oldest to Volleyball Camp. I sincerely hope that she comes back a much better player and has learned so much that she blows them all away w/her talent. I know how much she loves the game and is very involved in all things volleyball.
Chris, the hubby, is watching his usual dose of Monday night wresting. I am not a guy and I truly don't understand any of the fascination w/this show that is much like a modern-day men's soap-opera. Oh well, at least he has something to keep him occupied.
Being in such a small town is so nice when you can go sit on your front porch and not have to worry about who will walk by and say hello. You can actually just know who those neighbors are and how things are going in the community. Yes, every place has it's faults but this is so nice here. Anyway, the times are nice and I am appreciating even the most humid of moments of weather (w/out the sunshine at every last turn!).
God Bless and have a great day!
Katharine, the oldest, is growing so fast that I can't possibly keep up w/her from day to day. Today she wants to play volleyball and impress the coach, tomorrow it is play time at the pool w/her friends and forgetting that she already had plans. Jessica is just a typical teen acting too much like myself and sometimes I really just want to pass out the information and hope that she is able to take it all in w/out an attitude.
Joshua is just a boy who doesn't 'think' that he has many other things to do in the day other than watch TV and play his gameboy-pokemon. I guess they all have their things. Then we are off the Evansville on Wednesday to take the oldest to Volleyball Camp. I sincerely hope that she comes back a much better player and has learned so much that she blows them all away w/her talent. I know how much she loves the game and is very involved in all things volleyball.
Chris, the hubby, is watching his usual dose of Monday night wresting. I am not a guy and I truly don't understand any of the fascination w/this show that is much like a modern-day men's soap-opera. Oh well, at least he has something to keep him occupied.
Being in such a small town is so nice when you can go sit on your front porch and not have to worry about who will walk by and say hello. You can actually just know who those neighbors are and how things are going in the community. Yes, every place has it's faults but this is so nice here. Anyway, the times are nice and I am appreciating even the most humid of moments of weather (w/out the sunshine at every last turn!).
God Bless and have a great day!
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Happy 4th!
Hey, happy 4th of July everyone. Today has been a different day. First time that I can remember that it has rained on a day of celebration like today. Have spent most of the last two days preping strawberries for Jam, whole frozen, pies, shortcake, sorbet and eating whole. Found a really good deal at the local store and just couldn't pass it up.
The dog has been an unusual bunch of whininess because we have had some extra company today w/the kids friends over playing. Feeling like a real domestic goddess this weekend. I think I have spent all waking moments in the kitchen cleaning, cooking and cleaning again. Even made some home-made chicken dumplings for supper tonight. Have been having fun overall.
The girls are busy watching videos of the camp they will be attending at the end of this month. Josh is trying to have his first-ever sleepover at the neighbors house and I am just left contemplating my dog! LOL
I have contemplated many things in my life and wonder what is in store for me. But, find myself saying that if I really knew what was going to happen, I probably wouldn't necessarily want to face it. Just want my husband to be happy in what he does and how he does it. If that means he goes further in his career, then that is where he will go. If not, then what? Well.....we might just sit a while on that one.
Can't wait until company comes in late August. This will be interesting. Just wish that I could have my dreadfully-awful bathroom remodeled! It will happen sometime in the future, I know that it will. Maybe my company will do other things around the house that need to be done, but I want them to enjoy their visit, not think they are coming only to do my stuff that needs to be done. I know that my dad won't mind, but I do. I feel as though when company comes they come to visit, not to work!
Keep safe and have a great time watching the firework!
The dog has been an unusual bunch of whininess because we have had some extra company today w/the kids friends over playing. Feeling like a real domestic goddess this weekend. I think I have spent all waking moments in the kitchen cleaning, cooking and cleaning again. Even made some home-made chicken dumplings for supper tonight. Have been having fun overall.
The girls are busy watching videos of the camp they will be attending at the end of this month. Josh is trying to have his first-ever sleepover at the neighbors house and I am just left contemplating my dog! LOL
I have contemplated many things in my life and wonder what is in store for me. But, find myself saying that if I really knew what was going to happen, I probably wouldn't necessarily want to face it. Just want my husband to be happy in what he does and how he does it. If that means he goes further in his career, then that is where he will go. If not, then what? Well.....we might just sit a while on that one.
Can't wait until company comes in late August. This will be interesting. Just wish that I could have my dreadfully-awful bathroom remodeled! It will happen sometime in the future, I know that it will. Maybe my company will do other things around the house that need to be done, but I want them to enjoy their visit, not think they are coming only to do my stuff that needs to be done. I know that my dad won't mind, but I do. I feel as though when company comes they come to visit, not to work!
Keep safe and have a great time watching the firework!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Times of refreshing
Today was one of those days when you sit back and realize that life is so chaotic that we can't control it at all, even though we try to. There is much to be said about being a stay-at-home mom when the ones that you are taking care of are growing up too fast.
So fast that, even the dog has realized when things aren't as they should be. I have come the relvelation that time is too precious and I need to make more of an effort to be better fit for myself and to be around longer. I need to make the ardous change of actually getting out of bed in the morning and taking that walk around the block w/the dog who whines at the site of her leash! What a treat to have someone appreciate you that much. Sometimes her love is almost better than anyone elses. But, I do love everyone of my family members, with the exception of my husband who I love differently, equally.
The kids get into fighting over nothing and I see that it becomes a problem for those involved. They have to learn and grow with guidance. I am thankful that I have sense enough to have a loving attitude (most of the time) in dealing with these issues.
I am thankful for the many moments that I can sit and talk with friends and just share a piece of myself and who I am. I try not to be mis-understood, but it does happen and I must ask for forgiveness because my mouth will sometimes just speak louder than I intend and keep repeating myself. I don't like that about myself one bit and need to work on that.
I keep praying that God will use me and my talents in some really big way, but I must also have faith to believe that even though I don't see it immediately, there is something in each and every one of us that is special to Him.
There are times in my life that I just want something 'normal' from my husband's job. I realize that it probably will not be for quite some time and hasn't been for the last 14 yrs. So, I live with it until he decides that he needs to change something about it. I will be supportive of him in all that he does because he is my husband and I believe all marriages need nothing by work, love, time shared and moments of uninterrupted dates!
For today I will try to work on finding my time for devotions. This is where I will find my time of refreshing! Love and Grace to you all....
So fast that, even the dog has realized when things aren't as they should be. I have come the relvelation that time is too precious and I need to make more of an effort to be better fit for myself and to be around longer. I need to make the ardous change of actually getting out of bed in the morning and taking that walk around the block w/the dog who whines at the site of her leash! What a treat to have someone appreciate you that much. Sometimes her love is almost better than anyone elses. But, I do love everyone of my family members, with the exception of my husband who I love differently, equally.
The kids get into fighting over nothing and I see that it becomes a problem for those involved. They have to learn and grow with guidance. I am thankful that I have sense enough to have a loving attitude (most of the time) in dealing with these issues.
I am thankful for the many moments that I can sit and talk with friends and just share a piece of myself and who I am. I try not to be mis-understood, but it does happen and I must ask for forgiveness because my mouth will sometimes just speak louder than I intend and keep repeating myself. I don't like that about myself one bit and need to work on that.
I keep praying that God will use me and my talents in some really big way, but I must also have faith to believe that even though I don't see it immediately, there is something in each and every one of us that is special to Him.
There are times in my life that I just want something 'normal' from my husband's job. I realize that it probably will not be for quite some time and hasn't been for the last 14 yrs. So, I live with it until he decides that he needs to change something about it. I will be supportive of him in all that he does because he is my husband and I believe all marriages need nothing by work, love, time shared and moments of uninterrupted dates!
For today I will try to work on finding my time for devotions. This is where I will find my time of refreshing! Love and Grace to you all....
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Time in a bottle
I have been thinking lately about how much my life has changed over the course of the last 18 years. I have been married almost that long to a wonderful, loving husband and have 3 wonderful kids. I don't know that I would change much about my life right now.
I have realized how much I have changed though. I have gone from being a very rebellious kind of kid to a woman of God who wonders how time managed to change so fast to where I am today.
I know that when I got married, I never pictured my life quite the way it has happened. I know that there have been many moments in time when I would have given up. If not for the time when I was alone and in despair after some really terrible times in my life, I don't think that w/out God my life would be what it is today. I thank God each day that I have been given such a loving, forgiving husband who has accepted me through all the ups and downs of everyday life. I know that if it were not for him, that I would be living a much different life today.
Sometimes we all feel lonely and jealous over such really unimportant things that come our way. I must say that sometimes I am overwhelmed by all that. I get confused by what I say and what is going on in my head. Sometimes I think that I am just really not worth having anyone around me but, I know that I am surrounded by people who will care for a love me through every event in my life.
Right now I am so happy to be here in this small community where I can actually get to know others and others w/me. To feel as though I am a worthy person who can contribute to anything that is going on and that I have something that will be heard and taken at face value is so great for me. My life has been full of moments of despair but I am willing to learn from anyone who will teach me something that is more important in life.
Life is good because of all I have learned over the course of the last 18+ years of my life and because w/out forgiveness by God, I will never be the same.
I have realized how much I have changed though. I have gone from being a very rebellious kind of kid to a woman of God who wonders how time managed to change so fast to where I am today.
I know that when I got married, I never pictured my life quite the way it has happened. I know that there have been many moments in time when I would have given up. If not for the time when I was alone and in despair after some really terrible times in my life, I don't think that w/out God my life would be what it is today. I thank God each day that I have been given such a loving, forgiving husband who has accepted me through all the ups and downs of everyday life. I know that if it were not for him, that I would be living a much different life today.
Sometimes we all feel lonely and jealous over such really unimportant things that come our way. I must say that sometimes I am overwhelmed by all that. I get confused by what I say and what is going on in my head. Sometimes I think that I am just really not worth having anyone around me but, I know that I am surrounded by people who will care for a love me through every event in my life.
Right now I am so happy to be here in this small community where I can actually get to know others and others w/me. To feel as though I am a worthy person who can contribute to anything that is going on and that I have something that will be heard and taken at face value is so great for me. My life has been full of moments of despair but I am willing to learn from anyone who will teach me something that is more important in life.
Life is good because of all I have learned over the course of the last 18+ years of my life and because w/out forgiveness by God, I will never be the same.
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