Yesterday, I realized that life is truly not about me....What I mean by that is I learned through our weekly prayer meeting that in the Bible, the most common translation of Jehova from the Hebrew to English is 'God'. We commonly use 'God' in all transaltions. And this is not what we should be using. God, really is 'I AM'......the Provider, the Healer, the Comforter, etc.
This gives an entirely new meaning if we look at the Hebrew word 'Jehova'. We can think of God in all sorts of way, but the truth is that truly, HE IS....EVERYTHING! Everything that we need or want, He is the Only One who exists for all of our needs, wants and desires. And the only thing He ever required of us is our love, attention, affection and relationship.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
A Conversation with God
Recently I had the opportunity to read the book "A Conversation with God", by Alton Gansky. I must say that this book, although interesting to look at, came to me with some questions that I had thought of some times in my life. Although the book is informative and I like the fact that it attempts to answer questions that we humans may have all had at one time or another in our lives, I must say that I was rather disappointed in the fact that (for those who have questions and are not believers), there were not direct references to the Bible; the most important piece of information used in this book, directly in the responses used by the 'conversation' answerer (ie: God or the apostles). I was also disappointed that the main opponent in the conversation aluded to in the title, was not always just the only response given. I think that this could be somewhat confusing to someone who is not familiar with the Bible or who has absolutely no background in any religion at all. Overall, the book is a pretty good attempt at trying to give some answers for those of us who have some pretty valid, hard-thought questions about what the Bible says and what we may each have thought about through our lives. I just find that it possibly is not for someone who has no background in Christianity or faith at all because they may not understand who the apostles are or how they might relate to part of the answer to a question that is posed.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Long time
It sure has been a long time since the last posting on here. So much has happened, I can't even begin to know where I have left off. I will simply say that I am just going to start all over again.
Everyone who knows me may think that things are going well with me, and they're right! I am definitely getting into some challenging areas of life with family. This is ok since it is quite natural to have the feelings that I have. Each of us struggles so much every day, but to believe that God can help us through it all is the thing that helps to keep me going and changing into a better person. I will never be finished here until the day that I pass on and leave a legacy to my family.
My children and husband mean the world to me and I don't think I share that enough with them. Each day I strive to love them equally while balancing myself within it all.
Last October I had the wonderful opportunity of a life-time to participate in a prayer assembly. What a great display of God's love and affection for each of us this was! I came back such a different person. For about 2 months afterwards, I think I was under a special anointing. This has since become something that I have not wished that would leave, but unfortunately life has crept back in. Just yesterday, after spending some much needed R&R at our weekly prayer service, I feel refreshed again and ready to take on a number of new things!
I am so grateful that the Holy Spirit can do these things for us just when we need them. I am looking forward to finding a way to Louisville, KY next week and hope that it will have a great impact on me.
So, with all that said. I am on a new adventure and pray that is OK in the long-run of life.
Peace and Love!
Everyone who knows me may think that things are going well with me, and they're right! I am definitely getting into some challenging areas of life with family. This is ok since it is quite natural to have the feelings that I have. Each of us struggles so much every day, but to believe that God can help us through it all is the thing that helps to keep me going and changing into a better person. I will never be finished here until the day that I pass on and leave a legacy to my family.
My children and husband mean the world to me and I don't think I share that enough with them. Each day I strive to love them equally while balancing myself within it all.
Last October I had the wonderful opportunity of a life-time to participate in a prayer assembly. What a great display of God's love and affection for each of us this was! I came back such a different person. For about 2 months afterwards, I think I was under a special anointing. This has since become something that I have not wished that would leave, but unfortunately life has crept back in. Just yesterday, after spending some much needed R&R at our weekly prayer service, I feel refreshed again and ready to take on a number of new things!
I am so grateful that the Holy Spirit can do these things for us just when we need them. I am looking forward to finding a way to Louisville, KY next week and hope that it will have a great impact on me.
So, with all that said. I am on a new adventure and pray that is OK in the long-run of life.
Peace and Love!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Why?
How is it possible to explain what one person may have done to your life? Why would that person be so unknowingly (or possibly knowingly) mean or spiteful....especially never to allow you to get to know others? Why does this person not realize how their judgments cause others to feel in the long run? How they ruined so many units that have been in harmony and functioning together for so long.
I realize that there are many changes in life and we all experience things differently because we are all different people. That is a good thing. But, to do something that harms others without even getting to know the person before you start spreading things that you don't really know about.....that is just plain incredible.
There are reasons that things happen in life. Those things will either make us bitter or better. I am going to choose the better part because I believe that I only have one hope to live for....and that would be a better relationship w/my God and King...Jesus Christ.
I will never know what is in the hearts of others...that is never for me to know....I need not get wrapped up in the here and now, only become more focused on the things that are awaiting me as I grow stronger no matter the circumstance!
Love and Peace
I realize that there are many changes in life and we all experience things differently because we are all different people. That is a good thing. But, to do something that harms others without even getting to know the person before you start spreading things that you don't really know about.....that is just plain incredible.
There are reasons that things happen in life. Those things will either make us bitter or better. I am going to choose the better part because I believe that I only have one hope to live for....and that would be a better relationship w/my God and King...Jesus Christ.
I will never know what is in the hearts of others...that is never for me to know....I need not get wrapped up in the here and now, only become more focused on the things that are awaiting me as I grow stronger no matter the circumstance!
Love and Peace
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Food as the friend
I was wondering and getting really frustrated earlier today and just when I thought that I was at my wits end, I discovered that I really have an issue......An issue with food as a friend and a compass for my mounting debt troubles.
Yes, we all make mistakes but I was really covering up my unwillingness to change by eating. Eating everything all the time and mostly in solace. I started doing this as a teen. Food became my emotional outlet for many things. It was there when I needed someone to just hang around and talk to. Only trouble is I was using food so much that no matter how much money I didn't have, I was (and still do) eat by myself and hide food from everyone else. I think that if I have food stuffed in the closet or hidden where no one else will find it that I can just go get it and eat and it will make me feel all better......
Trouble is, because I eat by myself, I have really run myself into a mound of debt. I will eat before I pay a bill and then wonder why there isn't enough money left to pay the bill.....Then I will go out and eat some more....It sure is a lot easier to eat out and not cook....only trouble with that is when you take a family of 5 out to dinner, it really does add up quickly and a lot!
So, not only has my eating not done me any good physically, but it has created a lot more of the emotional stress than I ever needed in my life. It is hurting me by making me large and not wanting to do anything and it is hurting me financially too. I have begun, finally, to realize after almost 25 years of doing this to myself, that I really am hurting emotionally. I now need to change what and how I feel about food......not to let it control me, but to let God do the controlling and let Him take me out of the problem that I have in relying on something that he already says has enough trouble of it's own....Not to worry about tomorrow, or the clothes that I wear or the things that I will eat because He already knows exactly where and why and how all of these things work in our lives!
Now comes the hard part of this all.......CHANGE!!!!!
Yes, we all make mistakes but I was really covering up my unwillingness to change by eating. Eating everything all the time and mostly in solace. I started doing this as a teen. Food became my emotional outlet for many things. It was there when I needed someone to just hang around and talk to. Only trouble is I was using food so much that no matter how much money I didn't have, I was (and still do) eat by myself and hide food from everyone else. I think that if I have food stuffed in the closet or hidden where no one else will find it that I can just go get it and eat and it will make me feel all better......
Trouble is, because I eat by myself, I have really run myself into a mound of debt. I will eat before I pay a bill and then wonder why there isn't enough money left to pay the bill.....Then I will go out and eat some more....It sure is a lot easier to eat out and not cook....only trouble with that is when you take a family of 5 out to dinner, it really does add up quickly and a lot!
So, not only has my eating not done me any good physically, but it has created a lot more of the emotional stress than I ever needed in my life. It is hurting me by making me large and not wanting to do anything and it is hurting me financially too. I have begun, finally, to realize after almost 25 years of doing this to myself, that I really am hurting emotionally. I now need to change what and how I feel about food......not to let it control me, but to let God do the controlling and let Him take me out of the problem that I have in relying on something that he already says has enough trouble of it's own....Not to worry about tomorrow, or the clothes that I wear or the things that I will eat because He already knows exactly where and why and how all of these things work in our lives!
Now comes the hard part of this all.......CHANGE!!!!!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Frustration
Hey there:
I have been thinking about a lot of things lately and realize that I am really far from perfect. Of course, we all are in some way, shape or form, but I mean really, not perfect. I cannot please everyone who asks me a question about something in my life. I feel as though I have failed on some very large level. How do we all go through life on a shoe-string and not get caught in some trap that it manages to create around all of the choices that we make?
I guess that is why I am trying to unravel all of the things that I thought once were the 'right' decisions to make. Especially financially. Why is it that we seem to believe that living on the very edge of making all of our monthly payments is something that should give us satisfaction. And, I know that I am NOT the only person out there who genuinly tries really hard to make the 'right' financial decisions only to find that at the end of the month, I am running out of time and money!!!!! It is downright frustrating thinking that I have made some of the greatest contributions only to find that in the long-run, it really hurts. I thank God right now that I am not able to just run out and get all the loans that I need to try and make all of those catch-up payments. I just hate having to go through all the processes of being down in the pit of despair and feeling like no one really cares about it at all......If I try to catch up on this, then that goes behind....and I try to catch up on that, then this goes behind......we all want to have things and we all desire to be accepted, but truly AT WHAT COST????
This really has been very much a hard-fought learning experience for me....I am going to do my best to truly do the things that I now realize are the correct things to do....Not the 'right' thing!
Well, I truly hope that I have helped someone out there who is struggling and can have them know that they are not alone in feeling the way they do......After all, Christ is the one who gave his all for what we enjoy!! FREEDOM!!
Peace and Blessings
I have been thinking about a lot of things lately and realize that I am really far from perfect. Of course, we all are in some way, shape or form, but I mean really, not perfect. I cannot please everyone who asks me a question about something in my life. I feel as though I have failed on some very large level. How do we all go through life on a shoe-string and not get caught in some trap that it manages to create around all of the choices that we make?
I guess that is why I am trying to unravel all of the things that I thought once were the 'right' decisions to make. Especially financially. Why is it that we seem to believe that living on the very edge of making all of our monthly payments is something that should give us satisfaction. And, I know that I am NOT the only person out there who genuinly tries really hard to make the 'right' financial decisions only to find that at the end of the month, I am running out of time and money!!!!! It is downright frustrating thinking that I have made some of the greatest contributions only to find that in the long-run, it really hurts. I thank God right now that I am not able to just run out and get all the loans that I need to try and make all of those catch-up payments. I just hate having to go through all the processes of being down in the pit of despair and feeling like no one really cares about it at all......If I try to catch up on this, then that goes behind....and I try to catch up on that, then this goes behind......we all want to have things and we all desire to be accepted, but truly AT WHAT COST????
This really has been very much a hard-fought learning experience for me....I am going to do my best to truly do the things that I now realize are the correct things to do....Not the 'right' thing!
Well, I truly hope that I have helped someone out there who is struggling and can have them know that they are not alone in feeling the way they do......After all, Christ is the one who gave his all for what we enjoy!! FREEDOM!!
Peace and Blessings
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Getting there
Well, time sure does pass by quickly and we don't even know it! The kids are growing up so much I can't even believe that things will (or have) changed in a short period of time.
With Katharine getting her first job, it just reminds me of how much will happen over the course of the next few years. Seems like she was only just a baby and then an 8 year old asking me a bunch of questions about some homework project that was due. I can't believe how much we think about getting older when we get older. Not to mention all of the fun things that I really look forward to that can be kind of scary. Like, all the kids leaving home and actually doing something somewhere out in the wide world all on their own. Each of them is smart and talented in some way of their own. I only hope that I have done all I can to be the best parent to each of them possible.
Jessica has had the 'first' date. And she beamed from ear to ear before and after it! I am glad that they can have friends of their own and that they are going to learn things about the world that they don't know yet. It can be scary, but I do have to let them grow up and not hold them back or they will never live up to their full potential.
So then comes Joshua who is trying to act like a teenager but still only will be 11 soon. He is going to play a solo on his trumpet soon and likes to play basketball. He is maturing in some areas, but really still just the baby of the family that I want him to be.
So, in all things we are 'getting there' some how, some way, we all get there someday!
Love ya'all
With Katharine getting her first job, it just reminds me of how much will happen over the course of the next few years. Seems like she was only just a baby and then an 8 year old asking me a bunch of questions about some homework project that was due. I can't believe how much we think about getting older when we get older. Not to mention all of the fun things that I really look forward to that can be kind of scary. Like, all the kids leaving home and actually doing something somewhere out in the wide world all on their own. Each of them is smart and talented in some way of their own. I only hope that I have done all I can to be the best parent to each of them possible.
Jessica has had the 'first' date. And she beamed from ear to ear before and after it! I am glad that they can have friends of their own and that they are going to learn things about the world that they don't know yet. It can be scary, but I do have to let them grow up and not hold them back or they will never live up to their full potential.
So then comes Joshua who is trying to act like a teenager but still only will be 11 soon. He is going to play a solo on his trumpet soon and likes to play basketball. He is maturing in some areas, but really still just the baby of the family that I want him to be.
So, in all things we are 'getting there' some how, some way, we all get there someday!
Love ya'all
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