Frustration

Hey there:

I have been thinking about a lot of things lately and realize that I am really far from perfect. Of course, we all are in some way, shape or form, but I mean really, not perfect. I cannot please everyone who asks me a question about something in my life. I feel as though I have failed on some very large level. How do we all go through life on a shoe-string and not get caught in some trap that it manages to create around all of the choices that we make?

I guess that is why I am trying to unravel all of the things that I thought once were the 'right' decisions to make. Especially financially. Why is it that we seem to believe that living on the very edge of making all of our monthly payments is something that should give us satisfaction. And, I know that I am NOT the only person out there who genuinly tries really hard to make the 'right' financial decisions only to find that at the end of the month, I am running out of time and money!!!!! It is downright frustrating thinking that I have made some of the greatest contributions only to find that in the long-run, it really hurts. I thank God right now that I am not able to just run out and get all the loans that I need to try and make all of those catch-up payments. I just hate having to go through all the processes of being down in the pit of despair and feeling like no one really cares about it at all......If I try to catch up on this, then that goes behind....and I try to catch up on that, then this goes behind......we all want to have things and we all desire to be accepted, but truly AT WHAT COST????

This really has been very much a hard-fought learning experience for me....I am going to do my best to truly do the things that I now realize are the correct things to do....Not the 'right' thing!

Well, I truly hope that I have helped someone out there who is struggling and can have them know that they are not alone in feeling the way they do......After all, Christ is the one who gave his all for what we enjoy!! FREEDOM!!

Peace and Blessings