There has been so much that has happened. One full year of college completed for the oldest, and she sure has changed. She is showing more signs of maturity. The middle child is on her journey to complte school this next year. Should be exciting. The youngest is just beginning to grow and show signs that he is truly just now beginning to be a teen.
The things that I havw been thinking about lately has more to do with my aging mom. She's not that old but, she has begun to show her age since last Aug when she had an initial surgery snd they told her she has cancer. Then she has been having treatments and another surgery for fused bowels with 6 inches removed. More treatment and then a fall wich she fractured her knee, pelvis and broke her arm just below the shoulder both vertical and horizontal.
All things considered, I thought she would be ok, but I was wrong. A typical vacation at her home was expected this June. That didn't happen. She just wasn't herself and I left wondering what was going to happen.
It makes me so sad to hear her trying to prepare us for things to come and being so snippy when I truly know she doesn't really mean to be. We are looking forward to some good times to come.
We'll see what happens.
Monday, October 15, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
Staying out of my own way
I have recently been reminded that I need to stay out of my own way. This is really the only possible thing that will help God to truly move in many areas of my life. If I become so obsessive and controlling about situations, God can never be allowed to move. This is especially true when it comes to what others will/are choosing to do with situations in their life.
I am strongly reminded that my faith must be bigger than my fear. If we are controlled by our fear, then we are standing in the very way of all the blessings that God wants to pour out, not just on our lives, but the lives of others. To become so obsessed is to constantly think about, create or form in our minds the things that WE desire, instead of letting God do the softening and moving in His own timing. We sometimes can see things in our heads and we want it so badly that we can cause sinning by deciding to try with all our effort and pursuade something/someone to move in our own way, rather than relying on prayer and petitions to ask God to move where/when/how he wants to do so in a persons life.
Our idea of evil can certainly be seen in the physical world around us, but we also need to be reminded that even though we sometimes may not see the good of God and how he is moving, if we just step back a few moments, pray and seek His face and hands for direction and guidance, then we truly will see how he moves.
Sometimes His very moves are what we perceive as slow, but we can tend to get in the way and cause a stall of movement. If we are willing to live our lives by asking in prayer and then setting back, not taking control of the situation, and watching how God truly does overcome all the evil things we see, then we will see the glory that He does when he moves because He loves us and truly wants what is best for us if we are so willing to just participate because He knows how things will turn out long before we ever even start to think of how in the world we possibly can move things on our own.
I see now that I have been standing in the middle of things and I need to get out of the way and ask the Father and those involved for forgivness for the way I have been and tried in any part to control or forget who is REALLY in control.
I am so blessed and I thank the Father for allowing me to help in reaching/training my children in His ways that they will never depart from Him, but help them to grow so they may each fulfill the potential they have for their lives in Him.
Praise be to God our Father who is ADONAI! Amen!
I am strongly reminded that my faith must be bigger than my fear. If we are controlled by our fear, then we are standing in the very way of all the blessings that God wants to pour out, not just on our lives, but the lives of others. To become so obsessed is to constantly think about, create or form in our minds the things that WE desire, instead of letting God do the softening and moving in His own timing. We sometimes can see things in our heads and we want it so badly that we can cause sinning by deciding to try with all our effort and pursuade something/someone to move in our own way, rather than relying on prayer and petitions to ask God to move where/when/how he wants to do so in a persons life.
Our idea of evil can certainly be seen in the physical world around us, but we also need to be reminded that even though we sometimes may not see the good of God and how he is moving, if we just step back a few moments, pray and seek His face and hands for direction and guidance, then we truly will see how he moves.
Sometimes His very moves are what we perceive as slow, but we can tend to get in the way and cause a stall of movement. If we are willing to live our lives by asking in prayer and then setting back, not taking control of the situation, and watching how God truly does overcome all the evil things we see, then we will see the glory that He does when he moves because He loves us and truly wants what is best for us if we are so willing to just participate because He knows how things will turn out long before we ever even start to think of how in the world we possibly can move things on our own.
I see now that I have been standing in the middle of things and I need to get out of the way and ask the Father and those involved for forgivness for the way I have been and tried in any part to control or forget who is REALLY in control.
I am so blessed and I thank the Father for allowing me to help in reaching/training my children in His ways that they will never depart from Him, but help them to grow so they may each fulfill the potential they have for their lives in Him.
Praise be to God our Father who is ADONAI! Amen!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Life Changes
For all the things that come along in life, we can never be prepared for how we will react when things go in ways that we never expect.
Recently, after hearing about the death of two of my cousins, I was saddened in a way that I have never been before. One cousin, who I had the privilege of growing up with had a spot in my heart that I cannot explain what that was. She was a smoker, had a sailor's mouth and all kinds of flaws that each of us has. But, when it came down to it, she really did have a pretty good heart. She was kind and compassionate to so many people and really didn't care what others though of her. This gave her a personality that was larger than life. I can say that she truly will be missed by me and, I know, all of her immediate friends and family. The timing of her death made me believe that she had simply given up on life, but all things are set in time when it is all said and done.
Although I am still grieving her death, I feel that her life has changed me in many ways. I also am going through some grieving as my oldest is going through some great changes of her own. She just graduated from high school and will be going to college in a couple of weeks. This both excites me and gives me great concern at the same time. I am always hoping that everything I have done/said over the course of her life will have helped to prepare her in some way for the challenges ahead of her.
I ponder each and every thing that she will do and come across in her life as she is now entering a new chapter. I have high hopes that her life will grow as she discovers who she is and what she is about as God fulfills that purpose in her life. I have all of those same hopes and dreams for both my younger children as well.
As a new school year approaches, I am always hopeful that things will improve and all of my children will grow and fulfill their potentials. Life will always be full of the unexpected but, I am hopeful that all things work out just the way God wants them to be as long as we are faithful in our endeavors for him.
Recently, after hearing about the death of two of my cousins, I was saddened in a way that I have never been before. One cousin, who I had the privilege of growing up with had a spot in my heart that I cannot explain what that was. She was a smoker, had a sailor's mouth and all kinds of flaws that each of us has. But, when it came down to it, she really did have a pretty good heart. She was kind and compassionate to so many people and really didn't care what others though of her. This gave her a personality that was larger than life. I can say that she truly will be missed by me and, I know, all of her immediate friends and family. The timing of her death made me believe that she had simply given up on life, but all things are set in time when it is all said and done.
Although I am still grieving her death, I feel that her life has changed me in many ways. I also am going through some grieving as my oldest is going through some great changes of her own. She just graduated from high school and will be going to college in a couple of weeks. This both excites me and gives me great concern at the same time. I am always hoping that everything I have done/said over the course of her life will have helped to prepare her in some way for the challenges ahead of her.
I ponder each and every thing that she will do and come across in her life as she is now entering a new chapter. I have high hopes that her life will grow as she discovers who she is and what she is about as God fulfills that purpose in her life. I have all of those same hopes and dreams for both my younger children as well.
As a new school year approaches, I am always hopeful that things will improve and all of my children will grow and fulfill their potentials. Life will always be full of the unexpected but, I am hopeful that all things work out just the way God wants them to be as long as we are faithful in our endeavors for him.
Thursday, June 23, 2011
I AM
Yesterday, I realized that life is truly not about me....What I mean by that is I learned through our weekly prayer meeting that in the Bible, the most common translation of Jehova from the Hebrew to English is 'God'. We commonly use 'God' in all transaltions. And this is not what we should be using. God, really is 'I AM'......the Provider, the Healer, the Comforter, etc.
This gives an entirely new meaning if we look at the Hebrew word 'Jehova'. We can think of God in all sorts of way, but the truth is that truly, HE IS....EVERYTHING! Everything that we need or want, He is the Only One who exists for all of our needs, wants and desires. And the only thing He ever required of us is our love, attention, affection and relationship.
This gives an entirely new meaning if we look at the Hebrew word 'Jehova'. We can think of God in all sorts of way, but the truth is that truly, HE IS....EVERYTHING! Everything that we need or want, He is the Only One who exists for all of our needs, wants and desires. And the only thing He ever required of us is our love, attention, affection and relationship.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
A Conversation with God
Recently I had the opportunity to read the book "A Conversation with God", by Alton Gansky. I must say that this book, although interesting to look at, came to me with some questions that I had thought of some times in my life. Although the book is informative and I like the fact that it attempts to answer questions that we humans may have all had at one time or another in our lives, I must say that I was rather disappointed in the fact that (for those who have questions and are not believers), there were not direct references to the Bible; the most important piece of information used in this book, directly in the responses used by the 'conversation' answerer (ie: God or the apostles). I was also disappointed that the main opponent in the conversation aluded to in the title, was not always just the only response given. I think that this could be somewhat confusing to someone who is not familiar with the Bible or who has absolutely no background in any religion at all. Overall, the book is a pretty good attempt at trying to give some answers for those of us who have some pretty valid, hard-thought questions about what the Bible says and what we may each have thought about through our lives. I just find that it possibly is not for someone who has no background in Christianity or faith at all because they may not understand who the apostles are or how they might relate to part of the answer to a question that is posed.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Long time
It sure has been a long time since the last posting on here. So much has happened, I can't even begin to know where I have left off. I will simply say that I am just going to start all over again.
Everyone who knows me may think that things are going well with me, and they're right! I am definitely getting into some challenging areas of life with family. This is ok since it is quite natural to have the feelings that I have. Each of us struggles so much every day, but to believe that God can help us through it all is the thing that helps to keep me going and changing into a better person. I will never be finished here until the day that I pass on and leave a legacy to my family.
My children and husband mean the world to me and I don't think I share that enough with them. Each day I strive to love them equally while balancing myself within it all.
Last October I had the wonderful opportunity of a life-time to participate in a prayer assembly. What a great display of God's love and affection for each of us this was! I came back such a different person. For about 2 months afterwards, I think I was under a special anointing. This has since become something that I have not wished that would leave, but unfortunately life has crept back in. Just yesterday, after spending some much needed R&R at our weekly prayer service, I feel refreshed again and ready to take on a number of new things!
I am so grateful that the Holy Spirit can do these things for us just when we need them. I am looking forward to finding a way to Louisville, KY next week and hope that it will have a great impact on me.
So, with all that said. I am on a new adventure and pray that is OK in the long-run of life.
Peace and Love!
Everyone who knows me may think that things are going well with me, and they're right! I am definitely getting into some challenging areas of life with family. This is ok since it is quite natural to have the feelings that I have. Each of us struggles so much every day, but to believe that God can help us through it all is the thing that helps to keep me going and changing into a better person. I will never be finished here until the day that I pass on and leave a legacy to my family.
My children and husband mean the world to me and I don't think I share that enough with them. Each day I strive to love them equally while balancing myself within it all.
Last October I had the wonderful opportunity of a life-time to participate in a prayer assembly. What a great display of God's love and affection for each of us this was! I came back such a different person. For about 2 months afterwards, I think I was under a special anointing. This has since become something that I have not wished that would leave, but unfortunately life has crept back in. Just yesterday, after spending some much needed R&R at our weekly prayer service, I feel refreshed again and ready to take on a number of new things!
I am so grateful that the Holy Spirit can do these things for us just when we need them. I am looking forward to finding a way to Louisville, KY next week and hope that it will have a great impact on me.
So, with all that said. I am on a new adventure and pray that is OK in the long-run of life.
Peace and Love!
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Why?
How is it possible to explain what one person may have done to your life? Why would that person be so unknowingly (or possibly knowingly) mean or spiteful....especially never to allow you to get to know others? Why does this person not realize how their judgments cause others to feel in the long run? How they ruined so many units that have been in harmony and functioning together for so long.
I realize that there are many changes in life and we all experience things differently because we are all different people. That is a good thing. But, to do something that harms others without even getting to know the person before you start spreading things that you don't really know about.....that is just plain incredible.
There are reasons that things happen in life. Those things will either make us bitter or better. I am going to choose the better part because I believe that I only have one hope to live for....and that would be a better relationship w/my God and King...Jesus Christ.
I will never know what is in the hearts of others...that is never for me to know....I need not get wrapped up in the here and now, only become more focused on the things that are awaiting me as I grow stronger no matter the circumstance!
Love and Peace
I realize that there are many changes in life and we all experience things differently because we are all different people. That is a good thing. But, to do something that harms others without even getting to know the person before you start spreading things that you don't really know about.....that is just plain incredible.
There are reasons that things happen in life. Those things will either make us bitter or better. I am going to choose the better part because I believe that I only have one hope to live for....and that would be a better relationship w/my God and King...Jesus Christ.
I will never know what is in the hearts of others...that is never for me to know....I need not get wrapped up in the here and now, only become more focused on the things that are awaiting me as I grow stronger no matter the circumstance!
Love and Peace
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